Unfinished Business

         

             No matter how long you've been together, no matter how tight you held someone, and how much you've sacrifice for one person if you're not destined for each other you'll never be the right person to him. It has been three years since we broke up but until now..I'm still bothered about yesterday :(

             It's been three years but it still hurts.
             It's been three years I still remember him..
 It was hard to me letting him go, so hard that until now it hurts me a lot. I may be living the opposite life that I wanted it was because of the choices I made for him. Throughout these years he's all that I thought every night. How was his life without me? Does he still thinking about me? but of course my answer is no! he never thought of me, he never wanted to ask me how I was living without him. My sacrifices for him has been useless, I give him all that I have but he took me for granted. Like every other women in the world we always thought about the future but that was out of his mind, I admit that I can't forgive him for all the things that he'd done in my Life. He ruined my life.

                All this time I was waiting for him to come to me and talk about the past but still he didn't try.
Until the time comes that I was tired of waiting and I need to move on with my life. I can't wait too long..
It was unforgettable and unforgivable but I can't blame him it was all my fault and I did those decision alone without asking some people's advice.

               Last night while I was thinking about him a friend sent me a message which says,

" If you want to be happy for a moment take revenge, but if you want to be happy for a lifetime, then grant FORGIVENESS....."


              So I realized that time will heal those wounds that he left me..
              and in the right time I may have forgive him and forgive myself :)

miss stakes!

I don't know how to picture out my life today if I haven't had my mistakes in life. it's true that mistakes are the stepping stone to learning, and i had a lot of experience in making mistakes..that's why i call my self "Miss Stakes".

It all started when i was a little girl that I always make mistakes in examinations, in choosing friends and the words that I say. then I learned that if I want to have Three Stars in my arm I should study harder. Then, if i wanted to have good friends I should choose the good ones and if I don't want to hurt somebody  I should think first before I say a word.

While growing up there was a lot of mistakes that I have done. Mistakes that I know it's unforgivable. It was a golden rule if you don't want it to do unto you, do not do it to others. Falling in-love is somehow a choice, a choice whom you'll fall in-love with, how you fall in-love and when to be in-love. In church meetings I learned a lot about dating. How you should deal  with it and what are the best things to do when you are dating someone. First, Go on with group date, next don't go to dark places, no pecking and necking and lastly, obey the law of chastity(sexual purity). I obeyed the laws of our church till I made a  BIG MISTAKE.

I cannot return the past and change it but all I think is that i could still make a change for my future. I regret all the mistakes I've done in my life it affects my family, friends especially myself. I know I changed a lot on who I am in my past. I know I can still be the person I want to be by making right choices.

as the children's song qoute " choose the right, there is peace in righteous doing":)