Unfinished Business

         

             No matter how long you've been together, no matter how tight you held someone, and how much you've sacrifice for one person if you're not destined for each other you'll never be the right person to him. It has been three years since we broke up but until now..I'm still bothered about yesterday :(

             It's been three years but it still hurts.
             It's been three years I still remember him..
 It was hard to me letting him go, so hard that until now it hurts me a lot. I may be living the opposite life that I wanted it was because of the choices I made for him. Throughout these years he's all that I thought every night. How was his life without me? Does he still thinking about me? but of course my answer is no! he never thought of me, he never wanted to ask me how I was living without him. My sacrifices for him has been useless, I give him all that I have but he took me for granted. Like every other women in the world we always thought about the future but that was out of his mind, I admit that I can't forgive him for all the things that he'd done in my Life. He ruined my life.

                All this time I was waiting for him to come to me and talk about the past but still he didn't try.
Until the time comes that I was tired of waiting and I need to move on with my life. I can't wait too long..
It was unforgettable and unforgivable but I can't blame him it was all my fault and I did those decision alone without asking some people's advice.

               Last night while I was thinking about him a friend sent me a message which says,

" If you want to be happy for a moment take revenge, but if you want to be happy for a lifetime, then grant FORGIVENESS....."


              So I realized that time will heal those wounds that he left me..
              and in the right time I may have forgive him and forgive myself :)

Is it Good or Bad?

              I'll never forget what my father always told me " do not be selfish.." I have live my life being friendly and unselfish to others. Often I'll think what's best for the others than for myself, Everytime I saw someone who needs my help I lend them my hand,but now I realize being unselfish is not good at all times.. To gave someone the thing that he like, I'll sacrifice my allowance. To help them from their financial problems I lend them my savings and now, there's none left for me.

         I feel happy because I had helped them but in return I really felt pity for myself. Pity because I realized that I always think about them not thinking about myself. But then in the end I still wanted to help them.. :(

Goodbye Wednesday...

               Wednesday it's transfer day! but the truth I don't like it, I hate the feeling when someone go away, not sure when will I meet them again. As a member of the church it's a part of our life meeting new friends almost every month, missionaries come and go...comes from different country and go on their mission to preach the gospel of God. Somehow I feel happy cause I know there are a lot of people waiting for them, to help them know the truth and be baptized in the true church. But, why do they need to stay here in a short period of time then go after a month, it breaks my heart seeing a newly baptize cry because the missionaries who taught her about the church will be leaving today.. awkward feeling we should be happy but instead we're sad.. I know that t was just a part of life some may come and others would go, Our path are different so we need to accept it. We always told them that there's no goodbye's but see you later.

I love having new friends,but still I don't like Transfer day :D hehehehehe....

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is there any one who can teach me how to change my blog layout???I can't change it..huhuhuh
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first day of "Ber"

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